the glamour is wearing off

so, in creating a blog, obviously I have to be honest sometimes. right now, i'm not too excited to be here. i'm having an ok time, but not great. i expected things to be a little different, so i'm trying to just stay positive and get through it.
i think i'm struggling because it's so cold and its difficult to find weather to exercise in. if you know me fairly well, running and moving around kind-of keep me sane, so it's been tough with the wind and the fact that i live on a huge hill to find ways to run or exercise. joining a gym is out, since its around 40 euro a month (about $60), and all of the gyms i have seen have been less than impressive.
i'm also struggling because i really miss my friends, my family, my boyfriend, my church, and basically everything i'm used to in the US. i feel like the people here are nice, but distant, so it's hard to feel like i can really be myself and relax. i feel like i always have to be on my best behavior, and i'm not a fan of that. i like to just chill and be myself. last week was nice with Eva because i got to do that a little bit, but its hard to come back to my life in Marseille with limited friends and classes that are interesting enough, but not really very captivating.
so, i'm struggling. but i'm trying to stay positive. i'm going to try to brave the weather and run anyways (i have a little bit of a cold now, so i'll wait a few days). i went to a protestant church (finally found one!) this morning, and many of the people there seemed very welcoming and nice, so i'm hoping to get more involved with their ministry. also, i'm going to just throw myself into my schoolwork and i guess go above and beyond since i seem to have free time to kill.
and right now, i'm going to try to go relax with a movie or reading le Conte de Monte Cristo (the count of monte cristo, my favorite book, and part of the reason i came to Marseille).